On the night before he died, Jesus shocked the gathered disciples with, "One of you is about to betray me." Everyone of them questioned him, "Is it I, Lord?" except for Judas who said, "Is it I, Teacher?"
In one of my favorite Churches there is a massive icon of Our Lord as teacher and judge. It looms over you as soon as you enter the church. It is not a kind and peaceful Jesus, but a Jesus who comes again to judge the living and the dead. Whenever I enter that church I think of Our Lord's Last Supper and find myself asking him, "Is it I, Lord?"
- Am I worshipping you alone or do I place an idealogy above you?
- Do I seek first the Kingdom of God or am I serving some other king?
- Do I listen for your voice or does the accuser (Satan) keep me from hearing you?
- Do I seek to be the judge or am I content to allow you to judge?
In a nutshell, am I handing over Christ or receiving Him at the Eucharist?